So, this guy basically holds within his soul all the characteristics that I loath in a "man." He's the stereotypical never-grew-out-of-highschool-or-fraternity-life boy, motivated only by the desire to get into the panties of worthy "hot chicks."
And this I fear. Because I am not gay, and don't want to be. I am attracted to males. And I want to get married, and I want to be in love. But I fear that men and women will never be emotionally compatable, and this guy is living fucking proof of that fear. I could never relate to the person this guy projects. I want to talk and hold and fuck and laugh and think and see and feel and wonder aloud with a guy. But my experience, which I admit is emotionally blurred, has shown me nothing but men who are intrinsically motivated for sex. All I've seen is their need for release and for variety and for short lived things. I'm 21, so don't get me wrong, I am not looking to get married for a loooong time. But I want men that I don't have to fear. That I don't have to worry that we're on different levels. I don't want to be a toy.