I have needed to say that for a long time. I love you now, like I will love you forever, but you are free from the ways I have mentally held you. I don't know how many ways I can say I love you, until it makes sense, and I believe it. But someone told me it doesn't matter if you really love someone, it's all in if you believe you do or not. It's been so long, and I've ignored so much that I don't know what I believe. But today I saw. I made myself see in the only way I could believe. And for the first time I'm saying goodbye, and even I believe it.